I'm wondering if other CD's that go outside the home have these feelings that I do. Such as, when I'm dressed up and I'm at the mall or casino or anywhere there are a lot of people around then, I am always worrying about the smallest little things. Such as my walking motions. I tell my self: Don't walk like a man. Keep your head up, shoulders back, hips forward. One step in front of the other. Be graceful;. Don't overdue it and walk like a runway model though. I think to myself: Am I carrying my purse correctly? Does my makeup look right? Are people staring at me? Am I breathing to hard? What if someone approaches and starts talking to me? Do I talk in my normal man voice or do I try to talk like a girl or at least try and soften my voice without sounding ridiculous? All these little things are going on in my head and I only want to blend in somehow. It's exciting, scary, awkward, tense all at the same time.