Well, I suppose I've shifted in the spectrum over the years. I originally considered myself CD but the last 10 or so years I feel I'm more TG.
I surrendered about 15 years ago. I couldn't take the stress of the hiding and sneaking around and came out fully to my wife.
I never retreated mentally but have over the decades purged as so many have only to find myself here again.
This is who I am and it's not a hobby.
I feel self-assured, calm and relaxed and enjoy life so much more.