There's more to this I didn't add but here it goes. I don't feel appreciated in our relationship the way I think I should be.. Besides things in the past like being cheated on with the help of one of my female cousins to sneak off with some guy she barely knew from online..I recently have not felt appreciated. This morning for example I get home 5:30am from a long nights shift at work hit the bed by 6 after feeding the baby and because I'm human and my stomach hurt I woke up at 8am to use the restroom. I just so happened to make enough noise to I guess wake the little one up. This turned into name calling puts down like "you dumb ass" "you never do shit" "your only good for sucking dick" which I haven't done for years but for some reason it's easy for her to use homophobic put downs and yelling me how I only care about myself when I work nights to be home with her and the kids and never!!! I mean never go out with friends..I buy her everything she wants.. She doesn't cook for me.. She complains about washing my clothes.. She's always trying to argue.. So yeah.. Sorry if I want some positive attentive selfish attention from a man. I can't think of the last time she made me feel special so excuse me for wanting a little affection which from the guys that usually hit on me is exaggerated attention. And trust me I've tried to be this manly man she supposedly wants ever since we got married and I've given her more than enough compliments and affection so I'm not lacking there either. I've tried I really have tried.