I usually make Sundays my Nikki time. Due to having to help my friends out this weekend by driving down to NYC and pick up my friend's mom from the VA hospital (her husband had Knee surgery and she didn't want to drive alone). I missed out on my time and boy do I realize now how much I missed it. Also I know that if I had my usual Sunday, I would have gone to church and then a bunch of us were going to the Chinese buffet.
Actually all the people I was with all know about and have seen Nikki. But since I stayed over at their house the night before and we were going to try to get an early start and I was going to a VA hospital. I didn't feel like bringing everything I would need to pretty up nor did I want to hog up their only bathroom.
I did my good deed, which makes me feel good, but I am beginning to realize that Nikki is truly a part of me and it's not so easy to just say no anymore. Good thing, the mom asked if Nikki wanted to join them at a holiday buffet and show. I did say no because it is in the town that I work and I'd know too many people that I really don't want to know about this side of me. But let me retire and then I'll really give them something to talk about LOL.
Not really a post, kind of a frustrated rant. But not every post can be brilliant and thought provoking.