Sooo.. lol
Quite a bit has taken place in the last few months.
My first foray into dressing in public was last December 2017 and it involved a taxi ride to my first therapist appointment.
All subsequent therapy sessions involved me driving and parking my car a 100 feet from the therapists front door.
January 2018 I think it was, not even sure, I went to a support group session, then another, and another, this would be my last one as I
didn't feel I belonged, but as fate would happen I met a friend.
From this friend I made my first day time excursion and attended a trans march back in August, I didn't do the walk but rather waited in a park where all the attendees would enter after finishing the walk.
Also from this friend I found out there was another group that met and started to attend it instead. Going to these groups gave me a reason to dress and to build my confidence.
During this time I started to go to electrolysis , going to a beauty salon and having hair removed is quite an en lightning experience, so much so, I quit seeing my therapist
because telling my electrolysis that I was Transgender was better money spent, plus I was ridding of hair,
I started to make friends and finally made a date to go out in November with 2 other gurls.
The week before my wife had a function in the city so we decided to book a hotel, I wanted to go out before meeting my new friends so I be more comfortable, so I decided
this was it, I would go out by myself while my wife was busy.
I got ready and drinking liquid courage but was scared as usual, im not sure if I would have went out, but surprise , surprise, my wife texted me and told me her event was
boring and She would meet a bar 5 minutes from the hotel, I jumped at the chance.
I flew down the road to the bar, if people looked I didn't notice, seen my wife and She was sitting at an outside enclosed patio because inside the bar was packed.
All the practice from little steps seemed to pay off because I felt no fear at all and walked in and sat with her, we ate and drank wine, then left and walked to another place up the road.
This time I took my time walking , enjoying the night air.
The only stressful thing during the first night was the fear of using a woman's bathroom, but the bars I visited both had gender neutral bathrooms so it was all good.
The following week, I went out with the 2 gurls I met from chatting online and we had an amazing night, and ended up in a night club and danced away, even though my calves ached
the next day, when they hurt, it made me smile.
Things I learned, dressing up makes me happy in fact happy isn't a Big enough Word.
Everything everyone has been saying on this board is true, No one cares, I didn't get any negative reactions.
I also learned my wife is a Saint, She doesn't understand it, She wishes I wasn't doing it, but if im going to do it, She wants to be there so I am safe.
Thank you all for the support,
Samantha
PS: I did a shopping trip also with some gurls, but that's another story.
Originally Posted by SamanthaToday
