Hello everyone! I hope all of you have been doing well.
I don't know if this has happened to any of you or at least in the way that I'll describe, but I'd like to know opinions, suggestions or recommendations (as long as it doesn't involve therapy).
First of all, for context, I'm a college student that still lives at home and has no job, just some occasional works and I have no classes left, just some projects that count as thesis. Oh right, also, not in the US.
With that out of the way, here's what has been happening:
As people who have read my previous threads know, self-acceptance is tricky for me to say the least and I am in a period of abstaining from CDing, since it was causing me stress (mostly for hiding places for the things that needed washing).
It's been about a month or two like this, the urges come back as usual, even in dreams, nothing new here, some times when I want to buy stuff, nothing new, I don't even do it anymore. However, I don't know why but I sometimes get thoughts about how would it be like or wanting to be a woman, but here's the thing: I don't even have gender dysphoria. What is this? Is this a result of not being able to sleep well for about a month? (Yes, I even got eyebags) Or just some sort of confusion after prolonged periods of stress? (from other things in my life).
It's 1:33am at the moment I'm typing this, I hope I can at least rest a bit. I'll be waiting for any opinions or comments when I wake up.