I'd been waiting to write this post to let feelings and thoughts can refine and settle well.
I'm sure that many are curious about others transgenders body changes but the main purpose to write this thread is the deep changes in my mind, so please read up to the point on mindset changes:
Physical changes:
Obviously the first and more evident change is on the breast. As a 58 years old that once was overweight, I had some male boobs that hang a bit. Now they are bigger and women's shape that wife says C cup and that size bra fits me perfect. I can't go full time yet so when in male I always wear a sport bra that flatters the chest, without it hard thick nipples always pointing front and boobs bouncing while walking. Still some discomfort on the breast that sometimes is strong and very sensitive nipples. When I hit my chest is painful. I can't longer carry heavy weights against my chest. Sometimes laid back on the bed even the sheets and blankets push down on boobs. Wearing regular padded bras is the more comfortable way.
Hair almost dissapear in all the body except head is more abundant now. I shave my whole body monthly just for any black thick hair could appear. Of course the more than a year using a hlp machine has helped a lot.
Skin is very soft.
I've lost some muscle mass as for example in wrists I had to reduce watch band. The triceps on the arms are noticeable thinner.
Fat relocation is making the tighs a bit thicker but not noticeable on the butt.
It has been hard to loose weight.
Libido is almost zero but with wife had learn new ways of stimulation that keep the boy working but sensual spots had moved to new areas of my body as the chest, nipples and down there in the back between legs,( you know what I'm talking).
The finger nails are very weak and easily break.
Mindset:
this is very important for me to get some feedback from you ladies.
The first change that most of us report is the peace experienced with a reduction on the dysphoria. It's definitely not a placebo effect.
Another change is the less or almost minimum need to post pictures of myself, especially those sexually loaded that I enjoyed in the past. Now I feel more secure about my femininity and even I'm clear and not delusional about my image as a male I see changes that Male me feel happy and more definited.
The main change has been the completely change in my sexual orientation: for years I was bisexual. As I had been with more men than women I was arriving to the conclusion I was gay but that change soon after start hrt. Of course libido was kind of zero but now the images or porn videos that in the past could arouse me start bothering me.
I reviewed tons of pics of myself on the past being very sexual and explicit, others showing a very promiscuous sexual life and I start feeling bad, very uncomfortable.
Now just memories of that promiscuous life turn me sad. I remember had enjoyed touching hairy legs or the chest of a man and be aroused. I'm not going to be explicit with things that I used to enjoy that now more than no produce any arousal effect on me, really make me feel bad and sad. This is something that really bothers me, makes me sad everytime it comes to my mind. I don't know what to do about it.
Fortunately, we enjoy so much sex with wife but in new and different ways that I guess lesbians do.
Thoughts about it?