As I sit here watching a Christmas Movie, it’s been a long year of ups and downs.
I haven’t been active here in an awful longtime. I went back to my old destructive ways of pushing all this out of my mind. When in reality I need to embrace who I am. As Rebekah is very much a part of who I am.
It’s also been a voyage of discovery mental health wise. After seeing kids struggle with ADHD and seeing a lot of myself in them. I I have finished the year with a diagnosis of Adult ADHD.
I have decided to stop worrying about what other people think of me. My wife has gone a little in reverse but I will not criticize as it’s her decision that she does want to see me dressed. The fact that my stuff is hung neatly in the closet and she accepts the physical changes such as shaving my legs and body is all the acceptance I need.
2019 will soon be upon us and what will it maybe bring the answer is who really knows. I have come to the conclusion I could probably never go out as Rebekah in my home city of Ottawa. The trade I work in is not really supportive of people like myself.
I feel as though in a state of flux and not really sure what to do next.
Whatever happens Rebekah will certainly coming along for the ride.
I am just going to get to grips with my ADHD diagnosis and start to grow into the person I know I am be. Though without the one hand tied behind my back that I have felt for so many years
May you all have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Love and hugs to all everybody
Rebekah Louise
