Well not sure what more I can do...I have to work, I love my wife and family and have stretched the boundaries of what those closest to me are prepared to give (and believe me they are very have been very patient and accommodating ) but what when its all just not enough...?
Fear not I will get over this ache in my stomach I always do but I feel I am on a downward spiral of despair at the moment....
I have grown out my hair , well as best I can , done my eyebrows ,I have done laser, ok I need to lose more weight which I am trying to do..and am on testosterone suppressants...but no estrogen (that is the deal breaker) but I am not finding happiness...just frustration which ever way I turn...I don't want to go back to being him, but I am not seen and would not realistically be able to function as her in my current life set up.
Just venting no dramas ..just venting