I have a story story to share, but first some context about me.
I have ADHD. I was raised by a selfish, absent mother. I was usually unaware of how my actions and behavior affected others. I was a pretty impulsive individual also.
About 10 years ago I was prescribed medication to lessen the hurdles of ADHD. Since then I've become more cognizant of my own emotions and how they affect people around me. I'm glad I am who I am today.
With that in mind, here's my tale.
I took a Caribbean cruise, alone, in 1998.
I had been dabbling in crossdressing at the same time. Not very serious.
On about the 2nd day, I decided to get a pedicure. The person doing nails was a nice man from the UK.
I really wanted them polished. I kept thinking "Should I get them polished or not? "
At the end the nice man looked at me and I knew what he was thinking. "Should I ask this man if he would like his toes polished? "
He didn't actually ask me. He just asked if there was anything else.
I didn't have the guts to say I wanted my toes to be shiny, polished, and for all the world to see.
I think about that day and what affect it might have had on my life had I admitted I wanted them polished. If my impulsivity would have gotten a push in another direction.