Hello all,
Thank you for this wonderful site . I’m a closeted somewhat crossdresser on and off for thirty years. I’m engaged and haven’t dressed in 2 years .
I’m not sure where Kristi lands in my life . My significant other doesn’t know . She is Eastern European culture . Recently some bad decisions on my part and work related issues have caused financial stress and relationship issues . I’d do anything in the world for her and to keep her . I’m attending g 12 steps and working UBER while I get my business back on track.
The issue is she doesn’t even know about Kristi , I betrayed trust by my behaviors and am so ashamed . But there is a small part that wants her and the kids to leave me . Some hurtful things have been said and I’m trying to work it out but she isn’t willing . I can’t even imagine if Kristi got thrown into the mix . In addition. I fantasize about being a woman and being with a mature admirer who would take care of me. I’ve experimented in the past and can take it or leave it but I’m so confused .
One minute I want her then I feel rejected and want to be a nympho as Krist! Talk about stress of emotions . Any feedback is highly appreciated .