I've been seeing a therapist for years to help me with depression. I've revealed that I'm a closet crossdresser to her. I've also discovered many other aspects of my emotional self while working with her.
On a recent session I explained that I feel like there's another aspect that I'm missing. Some other factor that plays on my wellbeing and I can't figure out what it is.
She felt there are two things that could be acting on my life that could be the cause.
One was living a more healthy lifestyle. Exercise, eating well, etc.
The other was my desire to crossdress not being fulfilled.
That struck and surprised me. I keep playing her words over and over in my head.
Partially because I rarely think of myself. I'm always trying to please others. Also because it seems strange to me to think of my crossdressing as an emotional desire that needs attention.
Just trying to wrap my brain around it.