Hi All
Forgive me if I just ramble, but I think I need to talk.
I am out verbally to my SO but she does not want to Dianne in any way. She is very accepting, even buying me cloths, knows what I do but has made it very clear that if she ever did see Dianne in any form our relationship would need to change.
As part of our understanding she asked that I not post online anymore, which I had complied with until now.
Lately I have been dressing more and in ways that could lead to me outing myself to colleges and family even with the knowledge that our relationship would completely change.
This scares me terribly as I am truly happy with the life I have with my family, but it is only part of me and I feel Dianne emerging more and more and this frightens me even more as I don't know if this is a good or bad.
I want everything but may end up with nothing.
I am finding it hard atm to restrict my activities and I don't know if this is a subconscious act to release Dianne.
Thanks for listening.
Dianne