It was spur of the moment. I had been feeling a little down because of everything weighing on my mind recently and my mom suggested that we go for a walk. At first I was going to do this presenting fully as male except for my jewelry but then I decided that I need to gain experience being out in society and that there's no time like the present. It was a beautiful day so I figured it would be a great time to try. I did my makeup and put on my favorite top and headed out the door. Before I left I realized that I was feeling a lot better after changing. As I left the house it hit me "Holy S________ I'm outside. Wearing women's clothing and I became anxious, but those feelings quickly faded to elation. I smiled and talked to my mother as we walked around a track path at a local park. There were intermittent bouts of anxiety like "Will they notice? Will they say anything? Do they know? Do they care? But mostly I felt great. And my hair isn't even styled feminine yet. Then we went to a local nutritional drink shop and bought a couple of low calorie smoothies. I had a banana vanilla shake and she had a strawberry one. I even placed the order. My mom said my voice sounded fine ( I have been putting a lot of work into it lately). Then we went to a local botanical garden for a shorter cool down walk. Altogether a great day. Nobody noticed or cared. I received no discernible stares or comments either way. To anyone who has never stepped outside, If I can do it, you can do it! There's a big beautiful world out there just waiting for you to experience it!
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