finally had an opportunity to dressup in 3 years i had fun for about an hour. went to put on some makeup, stepped back to look into the mirror and saw a hairy lumberjack in a dress with makeup.
took everything off wadded it all back up in its box and was about to toss it in the trash but put it back on the shelf. thought about tossing it out all week, but i woke up this morning wanting to dress again, even though i know the results will be the same.
there are days where i feel broken. and the wife is not in a good place emotionally to consult with currently, so I'm back here to read what others are going through.
BTW, kinkyboots the musical came to my town a few months back, the wife and i had a blast. great show.