Last time I posted, last year, I felt I was making progress with my wife, she seemed to hate the idea of me dressing less and less. However I still only do it behind closed doors and have nothing but my own thoughts, and my outlet on here to guide me.
Yesterday I told me wife I planned to go shopping today, I was once again terrified to talk to her. I have not been this year because I have still not accepted myself. First thing she says is why, do you need something? I replied no, to which she said oh its just to feed your addiction then.
This morning I planned to leave early however my wife made herself busy. When I asked when is good for me to leave she was very cold and clearly not happy. I told her I planned to be back at 5 to which she said why do you need so long. I offered not to go but of course she would feel mean for not letting me go.
So I am 2 hours from home free to shop and feeling a bit down, nothing I really like the look of I don't even know what I want. I do have a list with the end goal to go cd support group but I just feel like that cant happen without my wifes support so whats the point of shopping. Currently people watching to get better appreciation of womens shoes and what to wear them with.
Summary is by me not going out shopping for 8 months my wife probably thought I am cured, whereas I thought I am being good not going often. I am sure I will have a good chat with my wife tonight giving this mornings events.