For what ever reason I have always related to woman a lot more than men. I will state from the start I was brought up with a family group consisting of mum, dad and 2 sisters. So it was not the case of not having a male figure around.
Anyways, I was always happy in girls/woman company all through my life from school, the work place and in life in general. I could relate to them and felt safe and secure in their company. When it comes to boys/men I find it hard to relate to them and their conversations especially the man's man who scares the shit out of me.
I was bullied throughout school, in the work place and have always been seen as a soft target most of my life. God knows why, maybe the man beasts can sniff out the woman in me. I am not tough, I am not in your face, I like to keep myself to myself. I am gentle, thoughtful and very empathetic but I think people see this as a weakness and pray on it.
I get really uptight, restless and can feel my skin crawl when I am somewhere and there is a group of men especially if I have to try and interact with them. My worst nightmare if I am honest.
My one true male friend who I see as the brother I never had has always said the problem with me is that my nature is to put everyone before myself and you will help anyone. Unfortunately I still jump in with both feet to help people even though I have been hurt many times in the past and had no gratitude shown, but hey ho that just who I am.
The point of this post is basically to see if anyone else can relate to this and please think its all doom and gloom as I have a wonderful supportive wife of 30 years (who knows) and a wonderful family that love me dearly. (who do not know).....lol.
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