Feel jealous. It's fine. It's a perfectly legitimate emotion. Acting on it though...
that's a different kettle of fish.
My over-arching observation of your recent plight (sorry about the LB job. I was following and hoping but been absent for a while) is that your relationship with your wife is way too important to you. Though I'll concede that in light of recent events you may now be at a place in your life where you need to weigh your investment in your marriage with whatever is going to make you happy and fulfil you.
Do not do anything hastily or rashly is the best advice, I guess. You clearly need a period of reflection and self-assessment, be that with a licensed professional or alone.
Good luck, my friend.
Oh and lolz at likening breasts to toys. Even metaphorically you caused women everywhere to roll their eyes. Just as you did with training shoe enthusiasts for confusing Puma Pump shoes with Nike Air shoes. For shame. Lmao
My very best wishes.
