Its very recent, just three months back. I came to US for studies. I sub-rented an apartment for short time till I could search a final one for me. The apartment I sub-rented had all the stuff of the person who originally rented it. Books, food items in refrigerator, chargers, utensils, everything was there already. The person had gone for vacations.
To me living in that apartment was a bit awkward as I always feared if I touch their stuff even by mistake what would they think of me. My mentors arranged that sub-rented apartment for me. I never talked to the original person. Soaps, toilet roll, toothpaste, body lotions, tables, plates, magazines, chairs ...each and every thing was there, I watched it, kept my stuff at places in such a way I did not disturb their arrangement of things. I kept my clothes in my suitcase and did not feel the need to place them in the cupboards as I thought I have to move out in a month so its better to not spread my stuff.
I could see some portions of apartment having things packed and stacked. Near the bathroom was a desk cupboard, I kept my soaps, shampoo, creams there so that I do not disturb the original arrangement of stuff in bathroom else the thought will be I used their stuff. Days passed by like this.
One day my soap fell down from the cupboard and got stuck between the wall behind and cupboard ahead. I tried to peep in my hands to snatch it but could not. I tried putting my hanger but could not reach it. So I decided to safely move the cupboard ahead and pick my soap and place it back. I sat down and shifted the cupboard little away from the wall holding its legs. My soap fell on the floor and I picked it up. After picking my soap I held the legs of cupboard again and made it near thw wall again. When I come to the front of cupboard I find it opened and its content were fallen. My hearts skipped a beat as I find some clothes fallen. I picked them up in hurry to stuff them back in cupboard. My hands found a bag of lingerie. I blushed, my heart paced faster. I could not imagine I was touching them. I quickly placed them inside, closed cupboard and went to other part of apartment.
I tried to forget the incident but yes my thoughts went their again and again: "what would someone think of me if I touched their things which were so intimate? Will I be considered pervert? Will it be known that someone touched? After all its just stuffed randomly in bag, can still anyone know? I have already touched it, so why these thoughts?" Then one day, I just opened the cupboard again and wore those lingerie. They were silky, smooth and in different colors. I liked the yellow one most. I slept in them. I felt nice but guilty too that I breached someone's else's space.
However, since then my body want to be in feminine form in a more longing way. I want to feel it again that way. I looked up on internet. I wanted to buy some but did not know how to. I even came to know about whole body male to female body suit, I wanted to buy it but was not sure if they are genuine sellers. Then I found this forum. I posted a question here about the same which got deleted by admin unfortunately.
I dont knw what will you people or world brand me, I think I did what was destined. Not that it was only three months back I started to feel that my soul want to acquire a female form, that emotion was always there since I gained consciousness about the self but it got a chance to bloom may b now.
