Results 1 to 5 of 5

Thread: 18 months HRT

  1. #1
    Silver Member Devi SM's Avatar
    Join Date
    Oct 2015
    Location
    Banning, east of Los Angeles.
    Posts
    2,571

    18 months HRT

    Please, it's a long one so read just what you're interest or just skip it.
    I wrote this post days ago on November 1st but it wasn't published.

    As I said other times, for me, emotional changes had been greater than the physical because they have more value for me.
    Treatment or therapy:
    6 first months on skin therapy patches, almost a year on pills that were increased 2 times so I was at the end of pills in a double dose than the beginning (remember is not aloud to mention doses) now, last 3 weeks on injections of estrogen.

    Tblocker, spirolactone was increased in steps of to weeks
    a quarter of dose, then half, three quarters and reached to actual level full dose.

    Physical: skipping the initial symptoms on sore and higher sensitivity on nipples and breast some discomfort on the breast growth, every time the method of administration has changed produced again same symptoms.
    Of course bigger boobs, B cup now hard to hide and painful to keep binded in male mode. Curiously, I got used to the size and live with that extra mass in the chest that now I ca
    sleep.in my stomach as well I don't accidentally hit the breast, that was very painful at the beginning.

    Sexuality:
    It's a know fact the death of libido as men experience it, so less sexual activity and the way we use to make it but not exempt of sexual desire. For me, the motivation for sex is now more emotional, no exempt of erections but not needed it so we are seriously thinking on orchiectomy.

    Eating habits:
    because of the side effects of spiro, as craving for salty food that at the beginning, for several months made me eat in an uncontrolled way lemons which juice ended ruining the enamel of my two front upper teeth. Dentist refilled it and now look better but not the same it was.
    My preferences for food had changed. I was a sweet guy, chocolates, pastries and candies as sweet fruit was an important case in my nurture. now, I am a salad girl and a lot less sweet fruits.

    Manyadues here mention a change of the urine color and smell. Yeah, I experience that and they report an uneqsent change when they have to stop HRT for a surgery or doctor prescription. that's not a "femenine" feature but just the normal waste of the extra chemicals in your blood and the absence when stop taking medicines.

    Fat relocation: in my case I slowly notice after the first year a smaller waist, thicker hips (remember wider hips in women is the result of a diferece on pelvis and wider birth channel) but there are some fat relocated there too.
    I don't know if because I was trying to lose weight I didn't see this changes before but since 6 months ago I stop diet and star gaining weight and of course fat tissues it ot a growth on the man typical belly. So far I weight 6 extra pounds, 5' 8" current weight 172 lbs (naked, further time in the morning before breakfast).

    Hair: this is been a big and important change because I was loosing a lot of hair on the crown of the head and a lot or new hair just as an effect from hormones.
    I had been using different method to remove hair from legs and arms throughout last 15 years but when I hormones it was ot longer needed. As an interesting thing, in the lower belly and chest no more hair but it persist in the genital area as any woman but the bikini are is now very marked.
    I don't longer need to shave legs or any part of my body except genitals.
    Face hair; I'm so far on the 4th month of electrolysis. hair is abundant but mostly white so easy to conceal but in the upperlip and chin is abundant too but dark so the electrologist has focused on workt this area first. So now is more easy to use some conceal just in that area and my make up is very light whis has given me an increased co fide ce that many people, I a daily basis do recognize me as a man. I dont notice a decrease on the thickness or frequency of growth.

    Genitals: I'd been tucking 24/7 for around 10 years but in HRT.testicles size decrease enormously to the point that is very easy hide and keep the boys inside the body.

    EMOTIONAL:
    As I said at the beginning these had been the bigger or more important changes for me.
    For long time I thought I was bisexual but under hormones there was a big shift on it to the point to feel remorse for the things done and dont want to go back to that. My therapist, trasgender as well but ftm, says I'm lesbian.

    Sleeping...for years infused to wake up always around 3 am with some fear, afraid of something. As a religious person, I thought it was god trying to talk with me, I used to pray, read the bible.
    For reasons that is not of this thread to talk, I stop that religious relationship but sleep interruptions continue. It was just from the very first night on hormones I could sleep a whole night. I had had some issues related with the sleep but after therapy were resolved.

    My view of the world change making me a more sensitive, tolerant and considered person . I can see the man I was for more than 50 years.

    Honestly, I don't like men. I'm not sexually talking but generally are weird creatures, even the good ones but that is a topic for another thread.

    Today, even thought my journey is not fully done yet, and several things are waiting, I feel happy and fulfilled. As I said I sleep very well, o regrets, lame, shame or guilt, I'm free...

    Fornthe sake of time I'll continue it later.in
    Last edited by Devi SM; 11-14-2019 at 01:23 AM.
    HRT 042018; Full time 032019
    Orchiectomy 062020; gender& name legal changed 102020
    Electrolysis face begins 082019, in genitals for GCS 062021
    Breast augmentation surgery 012022
    GCS 072022; BBL 022023; GCS revision 04203;END TRANSITION

  2. #2
    Senior Member mbmeen12's Avatar
    Join Date
    Feb 2012
    Location
    Connecticut
    Posts
    1,643
    Thank you for your post....
    Escapism isn't necessarily bad, but is definitely unhealthy in the long term. While helpful in the short term, things will degrade over time. At some point, the escapee will have to face the issue. Things simply blowing over isn't really going to happen in many situations.

  3. #3
    Goddess-In-Training Macey's Avatar
    Join Date
    Oct 2018
    Posts
    3,208
    "Honestly, I don't like me."

    Well ? you're entitled to your opinion, of course, but *I* like you, and I have excellent taste in friends!

    Thank you for the detailed post! I'm soon to start hormones and reading along with every experience I can!
    Too much mascara is almost enough.

    Contact me on MeWe mewe.com/i/maceyg

  4. #4
    Aspiring Member Dorit's Avatar
    Join Date
    Sep 2014
    Location
    Israel
    Posts
    542
    Thank you for being so open. The emotional changes have been very significant and gratifying for me too. We have a lot in common, including our "dead" names. I too am "religious", but I was able to leave toxic, judgemental religion for healthy spirituality. It helps me a lot now instead of the previous version that condemned me to you know where. If you want to talk more about it, you may PM me.

    I do not know what your thoughts are about surgery, but for me GRS solved a lot of problems and increased my psychological and emotional wellbeing. Also, there is now no need for T-blockers!

  5. #5
    Silver Member Devi SM's Avatar
    Join Date
    Oct 2015
    Location
    Banning, east of Los Angeles.
    Posts
    2,571
    Hahahaha, Macey, thanks for that comment. I have to fix and edit a lot my post. What I'd wanted to say was I don't like men, but for some reason my phone takes some letters on the keyboard on top of the bar space as I hit the space bar or as a dot ...lol

    [SIZE=1]- - - Updated - - -[/SIZE]

    Dorit,
    Yes, definitely I will pm you and share my religious experience.

    I'm open because I want to be honest and show the reality to other girls can be thinking on HRT or "transition".
    This is not an account of my "transition ".
    May be this topic deserve a dedicated thread but, for me, my transition began when I start trying to do definitive changes to my body towards a feminization. Some of those changes were unconcious as waxing my legs, more than 15 years ago. But I got concious about being a transexual around 3 years ago when I came to this section to inquire about it.
    Last edited by Devi SM; 11-14-2019 at 02:07 PM.
    HRT 042018; Full time 032019
    Orchiectomy 062020; gender& name legal changed 102020
    Electrolysis face begins 082019, in genitals for GCS 062021
    Breast augmentation surgery 012022
    GCS 072022; BBL 022023; GCS revision 04203;END TRANSITION

Posting Permissions

  • You may not post new threads
  • You may not post replies
  • You may not post attachments
  • You may not edit your posts
  •  


Check out these other hot web properties:
Catholic Personals | Jewish Personals | Millionaire Personals | Unsigned Artists | Crossdressing Relationship
BBW Personals | Latino Personals | Black Personals | Crossdresser Chat | Crossdressing QA
Biker Personals | CD Relationship | Crossdressing Dating | FTM Relationship | Dating | TG Relationship


The crossdressing community is one that needs to stick together and continue to be there for each other for whatever one needs.
We are always trying to improve the forum to better serve the crossdresser in all of us.

Browse Crossdressers By State