It's not 'a trap'. It's a choice. We can stop crossdressing; the problem becomes, what happens to us when we do? For me, I get short tempered, anxious, depressed, my memory suffers, and I have trouble concentrating on other things in my life when I go too long without crossdressing, essentially, it's exhausting pretending that I'm just a normal guy. It's an act. It's a role that I play. And if I have to do it every waking moment of every day, it takes it's toll on me.