Trying to put in words.

The handful of times when a woman has recognized that, even when I'm just being "a regular guy" (so I think) and get treated like "one of the girls" or even being called "such a girl", but not in a mean or condescending way.

Meant so much to me. I could'nt admit it, or say it aloud, or passed so quickly, and caught me off guard (or on guard really).
Means so much to me.

It is an emotional experience I wonder if I am expressing well.