I've been thinking a lot about progression. Thinking about an "end". Does it end with having Nicole time a few times a year? Does it end with going out in public as a "woman"? Does it end with "coming out" to friends or family? Or does it end with changing my gender identity?
I know everyone here has a very similar story. It started with one thing and grew from there.
Now we all have boxes and bags of women's clothing and accessories.
I've been thinking a lot about coming out to my wife. I'm fairly certain it will end in divorce. That's got me thinking about what I want out of it.
If she were to accept this side of me, I have to be prepared to tell her what I need.
If you'd asked me what I wanted 10 years ago, I would've said "two hours in the bathroom. I'm good." I never would've imagined I'd progress to two duffle bags of makeup, two pairs of shoes, a wig, and piercing my ears.
Is there such a thing as enough with crossdressing? Each time I dress up, I feel so sad taking it all off. I want more time. More time to be me.
Is it time to consider something else?
I feel very confused during this time of my life.
