Hello everyone! I hope you had or will have a nice day.
Why the title? Don't worry, this won't get dramatic or defeatist (unless you want it to). However, I recently feel foreign to almost everything, including this forum.
Yes, I have been to therapy, two sessions, but I haven't been able to keep going yet. My self-esteem isn't terrible anymore (even though, I guess I'm still in the process of at least accepting myself), but at the same time, trying to accept the part of me that brought me here in the first place hasn't had any improvements.
I haven't purged anymore, but at the same time I feel like "So, now what?", especially since during the last time I talked to my psychologist, she said that my CDing isn't a dysfunctional habit, the only not so functional thing being my social enviroment. However, I have no idea of how to proceed.
I know some of you say that the urges may come and go every once in a while, but I'm trying to ignore mine, I don't want any potential trouble or embarrassing situations. I stopped looking for a "cure", yet sometimes I'd simply like not to have anything to hide.
Before anyone suggests me to join local LGBT communities or the like, I would feel even more foreign there and the ones I have heard about are a bit too sexual.
I'll be waiting for any comments, as I don't have much to do recently.