Hi Girls
not been here for a while as my Wife confronted me in March about my dressing (just before lockdown). I had probably pushed things a little far (as predicted by some of you in my 'What can you get away with' thread) and it was actually a pair of reading glasses that caused the pot to boil over. (lovely round ones from the lady's section at Primark)
It was a difficult conversation and I was just completely honest, especially my motives - which were around stress relief and 'stepping out of myself' and that immense feeling of peace you get when dressed. I did re-iterate time and time again that it was not a sexual thing, which I think she started to understand.
Her initial reaction was surprising - we would stay together until my son finishes school next year and then we would go our separate ways, if she wasn't giving me what I wanted then she wasn't going to live a lie.
We spoke many times and she appreciated my honesty, i told her that i would stop and get rid of all of my clothes - our marriage was too important, but she kept saying that perhaps I shouldn't rush into it and perhasp I needed to work it through. But, if I did want to continue then she would leave.
This hurt and I did ask her if she was just using this as an excuse to end the marriage, which she said wasn't the case. but to her, the betrayal and dishonesty over all these years was the hardest part.
Things cooled down and we got back on an even keel, we probably haven't spoken about it since early April.
When I had an empty house I went through my clothes and put around half of them into a charity collection, as I didn't want her to see the full extent of my shopping habit over the past 4 years and kept the rest hidden.
I had not dressed since - until today
I am under a lot of pressure at work, I have a rare empty house (Wife at work and my son in School) and the knowledge that with my daughter and her boyfriend moving in tonight after finishing their University year, this will probably be my last chance for another 2 months....
I have had the opportunity to dress a few times over the past couple of months, but have managed to suppress the urges, either by coming on here to have a quick look through, or playing the 'Covet Fashion' Phone game, which is a silly fashion dress up thing.
but the Pink Mist descended today and, whilst I only dressed for 40 mins, and in a small selection of my clothes (I have put too much weight on to fit in a lot of them!) I have that lovely peaceful inner feeling again.
Thanks Girls, for keeping me going and posting your photos, I will have another chat with my Wife at some point over the summer to see if her thinking has moved on and her mind opened at all
In the meantime I need to start slimming down so I can wear my favourite skirts and dresses if she is more agreeable to it by the Autumn!
Jemima xx