A little while ago I decided to embrace my fem self. I put a lot of time, money, and energy into hair, makeup, fashion, losing weight, caring for skin, etc. It takes a LOT of work to try and be Chloe. To try and be passable. I was in it for the long run. Then I got on meds to deal with depression and anxiety. They reduced my libido. Soon their after I came to the decision that I felt it was affecting my relationship with my wife and I should stop crossdressing. I simply lost all desire to do so and was revolted by how I looked as Chloe.
Now that Ive been on these meds for awhile, I?m starting to feel a bit more back to normal again and the desire to dress comes back. Ugh...
I am so tired of this back and forth. I commit to stopping, I cant. I commit to not stopping, I cant.
It just seems so tied to sexual desire and those feelings always change. So my commitment to crossdressing...or not...also always changes.
I wish I could just stick with it one way or another. I dont even care which!
Anyone else dealing with this and solve it?
