As you may know I am thankful every day I can talk to my wife about anything Danielle related. However, that doesn't mean I don't have trouble myself bringing up Danielle topics. The last 6 or 7 weeks the stress has been building up with wanting to talk to her about a few Danielle things. Well yesterday my birthday boobs present to myself arrived and she asked what had I bought now. That provided the impetus for me to say I'll tell you later but there are some other things I have wanted to discuss but have had trouble starting the conversation.
I told her probably the biggest stressor for me is still the obsessive compulsive nature of the crossdressing. The planning and anticipation of a Danielle dressup day, the disappointment if a planned day has to be cancelled etc. can be stressful even though the day itself relieves stress and is very enjoyable. I thanked her and told her how important and special it was she let me have a couple of Danielle days when she was home and not going out for her day long lapidary club activities. I told her during a Danielle day it is still a bit strange looking in the mirror when I am getting ready and seeing someone with boobs, long fingernails, painted toes, smooth all over, male parts tucked away, and a wig. I'm looking at me but it's not the me I am 99% of the time. I explained I really don't understand the need to shave all over to look and feel as feminine as possible on Danielle days but it was something I was not going to question any more. Although summer is approaching and to make her happy I will let my leg and arm hair grow back. I'm hoping to keep my chest and pubic area shaved as no one else ever sees those areas. BTW, my wife is not comfortable seeing Danielle as she says it bothers her because I look so much different and behave different which I guess I should actually take as a bit of a backhanded compliment.
I talked about my online shopping and how I used to put items in and out of a shopping cart several times before purchasing them but now I was more comfortable simply buying the items right away. I do have an agreed upon yearly budget which she noted I have already used up. She asked what am I going to do for the rest of the year and I answered I did an inventory and it is official I have more dresses than mens shirts, pants etc. so I think I am good for awhile.
And finally I told her more details about some of you here who I email privately. She was aware I shared photos with some other crossdressers but I had never told her that a much bigger part of our group was how it functioned as a support group where we could talk about our crossdressing issues, the support or lack of support from our spouses, and simply talk about our everyday lives and experiences. She had some questions about where they lived and what they did and it was great not to have to keep all of them a secret from her.
After all of this discussion, this angel of mine turns to me and says " So what was all the important stuff you wanted to talk about?"
I was flabbergasted and said " Well, everything we were just talking about".
She replied " That's it? I thought you had some serious or shocking thing to tell me".
And now you know why I love this woman so much.
BTW, we did laugh a bit about my birthday boobs present to myself. Two sets of breast forms, a smaller pair and a larger pair to accommodate different style dresses. She did find it amusing I could choose how big I wanted Danielle's boobs to be.