Covid-19 has been a nightmare, there's no question about that. I miss being around other people a lot. However I've been essentially 24/7 for the last six months and that has been a true revelation. I would often just grab whatever came to hand when changing to female clothing. Now I take the time to lay everything out beforehand and make sure everything is color-coordinated and that it fits my mood for the day. I wear jewelry every day and coordinate it with my outfit. I wear at least a little makeup every day and my feminine appearance has never been better (in my opinion anyway).
Most importantly, any lingering doubts about my gender identity have disappeared. I've often said on this forum "I'm a woman ... " But a lot of times I'd think to myself "Is that really true? Or am I just saying that?" It's really true. I present as female because am female, and I always have been. No doubts whatsoever. I've been crossdressing a long time. The thrill of wearing female clothing disappeared many years ago. But it is so wonderfully affirming to look in the mirror and see a woman looking back at me. And it's affirming to know in my heart that the woman looking back at me is the real me.
I know that this period has been painful for many of you in terms of crossdressing. My heart goes out to all of you who are in this position. However, for those of you who have managed to salvage something good out of this mess, I'd enjoy hearing about it.
Much love to all of you.
Cindy