Hi everyone. I haven?t been on here in quite a while. I?ve been struggling a lot lately. Not a minute goes by that I?m not thinking about dressing, painting my toe nails, the clothing I?m wearing underneath my male clothing, etc. The feeling that I just want to be a woman, but knowing that I can?t because I have a family. I often beat myself up because I should have realized this before I became involved with my wife. I love her, but don?t want to hurt her or my kids. Another thing, I wear female under clothes everyday, but when I?m alone I do sexual things. I?m confused as to whether this whole thing is sexual, or is it that I need and want to be a woman. This whole thing is so confusing. I guess I just needed to vent, hoping someone sees this.
I know that I should go back into therapy, I?m a therapist, so I need to watch who I talk to because I know most therapists in the area. I guess I could try online therapy, so another question, does anyone know of any good online gender therapists? Thanks. Love and peace.
Lisa