What do I get out of it??
Simply, it makes me happy.
For those who need a more technical answer... My brain is hardwired to release feel-good neurotransmitters (dopamine, serotonin, oxytocin, etc.) when I feminize myself. The neurological response is automatic and involuntary. The sensations that accompany the neurotransmitters include; gratification, sense of accomplishment, reduces stress, anticipation of pleasure, and fulfillment. I have no illusions, and I know it looks weird, so there are also some sensations of vulnerability and fear of rejection.
