I completely relate and understand...and I have to confess that, while I've longed for a cd girlfriend to just hang with and have even met some that I could see myself potentially having that kind of relationship, I have also been the one that flakes on them. Part of it I think relates to how "out" we are willing to be. I know for me I can, when the pink fog rolls in very heavy, talk a big game about being out and going out and so on (all pre pandemic of course), but when the fog dissipates a little or I get a sense of what life might be like if my bubble bursts, I panic. It sounds like you are out way more than I am, Nicole, which probably makes it feel even more lonesome in a way. Most of us take two steps forward and eight steps back into the closet, and so that's how I justify being the flake (to myself). But if you're out and so many of us can't or won't join you there, it's gotta be tough. Sorry girlfriend
