So when I dress, and I look in the mirror I'm happy and I feel good and I feel complete. I like how i look, and how i present. I see all my female features.
And then i try to take a pic, or a selfie and it looks like an old guy wearing women's clothes. It's a disaster, it's awkward, I see all my male features.
Does anyone else experience this? And if so how do you deal with it?
The world is falling apart and ppl are like "EHRMYGAWD is that a man with fingernail polish on?"
play around with angles and lighting.
Focus on what you want to show off and take the emphasis off what you want to hide
I have a very prominent chin and I hate how it looks (in male or female mode) but I can usually find a better angle to lessen the impact of it
The lighting can make a big difference. You want soft light, which looks like it is coming from everywhere, or from all angles.
The Sun is the worst light source as it all comes from a single direction. Which is why you see photography crews carrying around big reflectors to add light from other angles. Which is expensive but worth it.
Wedding photographers use bounce flash to reflect light off the ceiling and walls. This is the best they can do to get candid photos.
There is also the golden hour when the sun is setting. This is a great time for photos.
Where I live there are days in which my yard will be illuminated by sun reflecting off the clouds overhead after the sun has set.
This is totally different from what the yard looks like in the middle of the day!
Marion
Last edited by Maid_Marion; 12-15-2020 at 02:05 AM.
Lydianne's link provides the answer (specifically post #4 from Teresa)
Short answer: your camera lens is too small
I know exactly how you feel, just yesterday I was taking my annual Maria pic with the Xmas tree. Because my wife was working from home she decided to join in. After I was going through the pics I don't know why, I told my wife that I believe I'm looking in the mirror and seeing something else. My wife did encourage me by telling me things look different in pictures. I thought I looked like a ugly version of my sister and myself all in one. Pretty much a man in a dress
I try again this week, maybe you could try again to.
Angela,
You beat me to it !
So much is to do with camera angle and focal length , that is the problem with smart phone cameras they have to use wide angle lenses to achieve the selfies but it's not flattering .
Adelinapa,
We all have days like that , it still makes me smile when I rushed to my builder's merchant in light makeup my old wig , jeans and an old Tshirt and got called " Madam" twice by two different sales guys . I'm sure they just saw blond hair and boobs and registered female !
Sometimes the wig can be the problem , long hair isn't always sexy , it does take the right facial shape to take it , when I tried some long wigs on I looked more like Macbeth's witches . The same goes for the choice of glasses , some women's styles are unisex or masculine looking , the right frame can change the shape and look of the face .
My wife asked me once why I took so many pictures and I gave her this exact reason.
When I look in the mirror I see what I want (or hope) to see. I see a woman staring back, I see the form I want to be in and it's easy to do. When I take a picture I can step back and be more objective. I can criticize my appearance from the vantage point that others have. It's easier to see flaws and acknowledge them.
Everyone does this. It's not just us. My wife does it when she sees a picture from some event. Girlfriends I had in college who were (in my opinion) gorgeous all looked at photos and and picked apart every detail.
It's natural to do this. Don't get hung up on it. Use it to improve not denigrate yourself.
I don't wear women's clothes, I wear MY clothes !
Lighting, focal length, depth of field, and posing all will make or break a photo. They say the camera adds 10 lbs, and sometimes I think I have several cameras on me - haha. There is a degree to which seeing yourself in a photo is like listening to your recorded voice -- it's unappealing because it is a perspective you don't get. I can be OK with my mirror appearance, and even in many of the pictures. But, show me a video of myself and it's "eeewwwwhhh!"
I could write a long explanation on the choice of cameras and the right lens to use for a particular job . In some respects digital cameras have confused what focal length to use , it all depends on the size of the sensor .
I worked with film cameras , when we referred to a standard lens we knew we would get a picture more or less the way the eye saw it . On 35mm film cameras 50mm was the standard lens , on 6cm x 6cm film format ( my workhorse ) 80mm was the standard lens and on my 5" x 4" camera the standard lens was 150mm .
If I wanted to flatter my portrait subjects I would use a focal length twice that of the standard lens because a longer lens will compress the features meaning on a close up the nose and chin appeared slightly smaller in proportion to the rest of the face , I always shot at eye level on a head and shoulders study which is the correct way to make the eyes stand out . On a full length portrait the most flattering position is shooting at waist height with the camera at right angles to the subject , so the body looks in proportion . I never ever shot portraits on wide angle lenses because they have the opposite effect that is why most people's selfies shot on smart phones are unpredicable or just bad .
Lighting is a whole new ball game , soft daylight and diffusers are possibly the most flattering not unless you want to achieve a dramatic effect . Digital is far more forgiving with light levels than film cameras but they're not perfect . I worked in the days before photoshop so I had to get things right at the shooting stage , any miscalculations were hopefully correctable in the darkroom .
Right! I have found that by covering all the mirrors, and turning all the lights off, I can eliminate almost all of the visual, noticeable male things about me!Originally Posted by Maid_Marion
Some causes of crossdressing you've probably never even considered: My TG biography at:http://www.crossdressers.com/forums/...=1#post1490560
There's an addendum at post # 82 on that thread, too. It's about a ten minute read.
Why don't we understand our desire to dress, behave and feel like a girl? Because from childhood, boys are told that the worst possible thing we can be, is a sissy. This feeling is so ingrained into our psyche, that we will suppress any thoughts that connect us to being or wanting to be feminine, even to the point of creating separate personalities to assign those female feelings into.
Try a DSLR if you have one (or even a pocket camera), it gives much better results than a phone perspective-wise.
Like Angela said, Teresa provides very good advice in the post linked by Lydianne.
Still, beauty is in the eye of the beholder and what your eyes see is a reconstruction done by your brain, not an actual picture, so even a photo well taken with a good camera may disappoint you (I also think we dont look at ourselves like we look at others, for example I suppose you don't consider that pictures of other people are as disappointing as yours). A photo is a less lenient judge than your brain, you might think this is a flaw, but I consider it an advantage in the sense that it allows you to be realistic about your look, and help adjust things.
Last edited by DianeT; 12-15-2020 at 07:45 AM.
Yes, I hate some of the photos the camera reveals! Taking self photos with a timer is a crap shoot. So what I do is come to the realization that I am a man in a dress. But some photos turn out good enough to share.Does anyone else experience this? And if so how do you deal with it?
But iss your goal to get better photos or to reduce masculine features so you'll be more passable when going out?
The photos are showing you what you need to work on. There are ways of covering some male features. Start with long sleeves
"You're the only one to see the changes you take yourself through", Stevie Wonder
I experience the same thing you do, and it adds about 50 lbs to me lol.
All suggestions about lighting are good and lighting does help as Teresa has pointed out before. But one of the major points is included in Krisi's post. Perception is what it is about that which involves the brain and how it interprets what the eyes see. It comes down to psychology.
At the mirror you have been working on your looks and your brain likes to subconsciously impose a gratification for your effort - a positive perception of yourself. Keep in mind that what we see is only partly what is there and there is not a lot of objectivity in the image produced. "Processing" a seen view involves about 17 different areas of the brain that specialize in adding its bit of interpretation to the final image. It all happens in about 1/60 of a second and there is expectation built into what is perceived - that is bias in the perception. The image that the eyes produce and is sent to the brain is a pretty poor like the images from the very first digital cameras. But the brain's processing produces highly detailed interpretation using information taken from expectations of what SHOULD be there and not necessarily what is there.
But in a photograph which is a 2-dimensional representation of the world on a piece of paper the brain will interpret that differently. There is still a bit of bias built into the processing of the image in the brain, but the brain recognizes it as a photograph and not an instant reflection of something interpreted by a brain that has expectations and desires that are very active. The photograph is not actually telling the truth in the perception either, but it is closer to reality. Thus the connection between yourself and the photograph is different than the connection between a reflection of yourself by yourself. We see ourselves differently in each medium.
Tests with apes show this clearly. They may not be startled by looking at a photograph of themselves because it is interpreted differently. In fact, they may consider it to be just a piece of paper with colors smeared over it - boring. But if they look in a mirror and see their reflection they produce an immediate and very strong reaction. They may be startled or curious. They may look behind the mirror. Their perception is completely different and ours is as well even though we understand more about what is happening. The photograph shows much more honestly what you look like in that precise situation (lighting, background, body position, etc.) The mirror is more of a biased illusion.
I'm surprised. I thought there would be a big difference in perspective based on the focal length of the lens. I did two photos, the position of the camera and myself the same in both, but in the first one I used the widest angle (18mm) on my DSLR zoom lens, and the second at the other extreme (55mm). Admitted, it isn't an immense change, but possibly enough. I don't really see a difference. (I cropped the 1st pose to help compare). Perhaps it has more to do with the distance from the camera.
p.s. My principle reason for the pics was to capture an image of my new patterned hose.
Geena,
This is part of ther problem with digital cameras , you don't know how to relate focal length unless you know the size of the sensor or the actual image size on the sensor .
18mm is fairly wide angle but 55mm is not much over standard lens , possibly a small telephoto . Also the smaller the image area the less pronounced depth of field is , that's why most video cameras have a deep depth of field .
Looking at your pictures again I can see a compression of the image on the 55mm setting , the rails on the balustrade appear closer and thicker .
Last edited by Teresa; 12-18-2020 at 06:47 AM.
I sort of estimate based on past experience. My old film SLR had the equivalent zoom lens of 35 - 70 mm. Comparing, it seems that around 35mm in digital is like the old 50mm was in film. I'm not sure of the exact conversion.
Geena,
The only guide I can give you is the FX / DX designation on digital SLRs . FX is far more expensive geared towards professionals , FX means full frame which relates to the full 35mm film format . DX as far as I'm aware is smaller but I don't know by how much , I'm inclined to think it could be equivelent to the old half frame format , some of the OLympus camera range were half frame like the PanF camera . This means a 25mm lens would be the standard lens so 55 mm would be a small telephoto , which makes sense of your figures on your digital camera .
After all these years I haven't updated to a digital SLR , the problem is I have some fabulous Nikon lenses that need to be fitted to Nikon FX body , the best option for me is buy a used ( second hand ) one . But then it means I'm carting a large , heavy camera case and the other problem is I will need to buy a high end computer and printer to do it justice .
It's so much simpler with my little Canon Ixus !!
Different people experience different results with that. Consider this response:
LINK: https://www.crossdressers.com/forums...=1#post4327417
But ultimately, the end destination in terms of what we need to do, is the same.
I definitely see it. The eye see what the mind wants to see. I first notice this in my male self as I do not take pictures of my female self. The women in my family top out at 5 foot six at the most. I am six foot in bare feet. My son is six foot four. Even pictures of me among other males I stick out. Six foot two can be a curse when it comes to blending. Although six foot two in the old days at 175 pounds attracted women, it is six foot and 200 pounds now. I deal with it by not getting too close to mirrors. I dress alone so there is no chance of me being placed next to smaller men and shorter women. I stay within my personal comfort zone. When I have the opportunity I do go for an evening drive and stroll in a very quiet and safe residential neighborhood.
I know what you mean and agree with others about lighting, angles, etc. I take most of my pictures with my iPad and always take a dozen or more. I find by using the extensive editing features, I?m able to modify each picture. It?s fun.
Teresa,
Your "old" Nikon lenses will actually work just fine on either FX or DX Nikon cameras with the F mount. The 35mm film lenses are full frame lenses so they cover an FX sensor completely. Since the DX, or APS-C, sensors, are smaller, a full frame lens more than covers it too. Using a DX lens on an FX sensor however is not so good because the lens doesn't cover the entire sensor.
Using a full frame lens on an APS-C (DX) camera results in some increase in focal length as you said as well. For Nikon it is 1.5x and for Canon it is 1.6x, other brands vary a little. In other words, if you use a 50mm "old" film lens on a Nikon DX camera it will function like it is a 50mm x 1.5 = 75mm lens.
There are many great used Nikon DX cameras to be had for very reasonable money and even if your lenses are manual focus you can still use them.
As a general comment to the thread, for taking pictures of yourself with a DSLR camera, you want a short tele lens to make it look natural. If you use a wide angle lens and you are too close to your face, the nose will look larger which is usually not desirable! So like Star and Teresa have explained, something equivalent to 85mm (in full frame terms) works well, and as Micki said, a cell phone held at arms length is not optimal because the perspective will be wrong.
For a real pro portrait there are a lot of other considerations of course, but most people here just want decent looking pictures of themselves, not something to hang in the corporate office.
I remember desperately trying to take some pictures of myself dressed in the days before (read: Long before) the digital times. No immediate feedback on a screen and the stress of sending the film off to let some stranger develop it. Just figuring out how to frame the picture while being in front of the camera was a task!
In the early days I didnt even have a camera with a self timer so I had to invent all sorts of contraptions to trigger the camera. What a mess.
Suzie,
Part of the problem with smaller sensors on early digital cameras was to keep the cost down . I remember when the first Hassleblad digital came out , it cost ?17,000 in the UK and needed a separate pack worn on a belt to hold the hard drive , even then the sensor wasn't a full 6 x 6 format , I believe it was 6 x 4.5 .
When I took myself in the studio I used my Bronica 6 x 6 camera with a long air release so after every shot I had to wind the film on . To get my posing right I used a long length mirror alongside the camera . Processing was no problem as I had my own colour darkroom .
I only used my 6 x 6 Bronica for portraits with a 150mm lens I only used my Nikon if customers wanted slides or to take on holiday .
I have a Nikon 80-200 F2.8 autofocus zoom which fits my FM2 film camera and it worked on my friends DX model Nkon and as you say it extended the zoom range .
Different lighting produces different looks as does soft vs sharp focus, colors, background and a host of other things unique to indoors and human subjects.
I have three camera bodies, two lighting systems, tripod and experience working with digital images and layered graphics and could discuss f-stops, ISO and shutter speeds and the effects that changes would have. That would just cause confusion as most people use phones, point and shoot or tablets as cameras. If that is the level someone is at I would suggest finding a favorite automatic setting and work on posing and lighting. For anyone using an SLR I recommend prime lenses like my 85mm f1.8 and 50mm f1.8. The 85 is considered a portrait lens and the 50 is like a wider angle version of the 85mm. Those lenses allow a person to set the camera on manual or aperture and play with the depth of field which is a big thing in portrait photos so as to get a soft focus behind the subject. Posing in such a way so as to flatter our good angles is a priority as well. Don?t be afraid to delete bad shots. That?s what the pros do, take dozens of images, cull out and delete the bad.
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