Well, I'm going to jump in with my code-less response. I have dressed or underdressed for about 45 years. Up until about 5 or 6 years ago it was mostly under dressing. Over those years, I have amassed several significant collections of some very beautiful lingerie. I have probably purged a half a dozen times. The reasons mainly revolved around shame and guilt. Every time I did, I thought that I could will the desire away. All I got out of it was regret for discarding things that I cannot replace now. Ten years ago I married a wonderful woman who has an adult trans daughter. She accepts and supports the Caylee side of me. She has helped me come to terms with myself and has forbidden me from purging without talking it through with her first. It makes all the difference in the world when you accept that you really aren't broken somehow.