Good evening. I have been away a while. My wife was very ill and took much of my time. She passed on Feb 13th. I had told her that when i married her I promised to be her man, and that is what I would be, She had me promise I would transition after she passed. So. My journey is beginning. After 50 years, I am now myself. Started really at the end of Feb. and already there is a calm in my brain that wasn't there before. My confidence is higher. I feel actually good. I had lots of happiness in my 50 years. I do not regret them. She was my 1st and only love. Wonderful kids and grandkids. But now, I no longer have the heavy weight of self loathing. Not to say I am not critical of my looks and no longer have dysphoria, because I certainly do have that. But I am better than I was. And getting better each day.
