I've had a feeling of sadness recently, and my counselling helped my pinpoint some of it.
I regret not saying something sooner, and I regret that I didn't grow up as a female. I miss the youth I could have had, the experiences I could have had, the clothes I could have worn, the teenage years of fun and excitement, the 20's where you start to figure things out.
Equally I didn't have a male 19-24 either because I was hospitalised and socially isolated for the majority of that time. I miss what I could have experienced there.
For sure, it wouldn't have been all good times and great experiences - I was bullied anyway, so I would definitely have been bullied for being trans, but I miss it anyway.
It's gone now. I'll never be a woman in their 20's.
Anybody else go through this feeling of loss?
