I hate my male form, and I will never pass as a female. I thought i'd accepted that, but it seems not.
I'll never be accepted by my parents, and I think most of my friends would struggle to adapt becuase they're casual friends.
I'm embarassed to go out when dressed, and fearful.
It's probably just depression coming to get me, but I just can't be bothered with anything except making sure my family are OK. I am long past caring about myself right now.
If I could switch off my trans thoughts, quit my job, just disappear into the wilderness then i'd be gone in a shot.
Please tell me i'm not alone in feeling like this, and having these awful times?
I'm supposed to be feeling good, as i'm just 36 hours away from having a whole 2 days en femme.
