Had you transtioned at an early age what would your life be like today?

[Paula_56]

I see so many young people transitioning these days, the resources and the support just weren't there when I was younger. I know many here are not transgender, but I feel I am and I regret no having transitioned.

I know in my heart I would have loved living as a woman, I would have been a dedicated mother, and wife. Had I transitioned I would have hope to be a teacher or nurse. I am a teacher now. I still would have loved the outdoors and hoped my husband and I would hike, camp, and kayak. We would have a home in the country and I would love decorating, cooking, and entertaining. I like to do these things now but to do them as a woman and share them with my girlfriends, would make it all even more wonderful. Oh and yes Dogs! I would revel in my femininity, being a girly girl as well as a tom boy at times!

How about you?

[Natalie5004]

That thought has crossed my mind before. I am not sure where I would be. But I do know that I love to be with and act as a women and not be sexual with a male.
You seem like a nice Mom. Let's go shopping.

[CrossKimmy]

Quite different, perhaps better in many ways. I wouldn?t be in this constant fight with myself. That would open doors for me. But it would have prevented me from meeting some truly beautiful people in my life.

[docrobbysherry]

Paula, I put this thread in the category of, "What if u could take a pill and become a real woman?"

I mean, who knows!?

[Leslie Langford]

Paula, ours is a journey of self discovery beyond simply acquiring assorted life experiences (both good and bad) as we grow and mature, and often in ways that the average "muggle" simply cannnot comprehend.

Many of us (you included, as I have surmised from previous posts of yours) didn't really understand this "crossdressing thing" in our callow youth, assumed that it was just a passing fancy, and that marriage would "cure" us - NOT!...as it ultimately turned out. And so, a lot of us simply elected to play the cards that "life" had dealt us, make lemonade out of the lemons, and suppress our feminine sides in deference to our wives, S/O's, and children so as not to negatively impact their lives due to our personal issues. We got married, dragged our unwitting wives and children into this bizarre world of ours, and decided for the betterment of all to keep it closeted and under wraps, all the while suffering in silence. Taking one for the team, as it were. I believe that this was your stance as well for many years.

It now appears that you have graduated from the crossdressing stage to feeling that you are actually transgender/transsexual and are looking back wistfully on what might have been had you transitioned early in life, and what alternate pathway you might have followed in that case. I personally don't feel that level of gender dysphoria and am quite content to remain a crossdresser. My only regret is not being able to indulge in that activity as much as I'd like to because of my marital situation, so yes - had I stayed single that would have been a non-issue and much easier to accommodate.

On the other hand, if I hadn't gotten married, I wouldn't have the lovely children and grandchildren that now give me so much fulfilment in my senior years. So, on that basis, no regrets as to the particular pathway I chose way back when in getting married and living my life predominately as a male, but it certainly would have been much easier for me had things been more black-and white from a gender perspective.

[Jodie_Lynn]

Ahhhh....if fishes were wishes.... If wouldas, ahouldas, couldas, had been used....

If I had transitioned in my early-mid twenties, my life would be entirely different today!

Unfortunately ( or fortunately, depending on POV ), there wasn't support for the transgendered back then.

In my teens, had I come out, I'd have been murdered, beaten and raped, hopefully in that order.

I truly envy the youngsters of today, who have so much more freedom of expression that in my day.

[Georgina]

My life would have been ruined. I now know that I could not live as a woman. None of my interests, except the clothes, are female interests. I enjoy my life as a man and love that I can wear female clothes in my leisure time.

[Barbara Joanne74]

This is a question I pondered many many times over the years. Even in high school I knew deep down inside that I was a woman stuck in a man's body. Growing up in a conservative family, in a conservative community, I had no idea there was a way out other than simply cross-dressing and hiding. I ended up getting married thinking that would fix my desires, but we all know that that didn't help. In fact that made things worse, because she was not accepting of that part of me. So for me I've chosen to keep Barbara closeted mostly and to live two separate lives. This is a choice that I have made and I understand the consequences. I have an amazing wife (25 years yesterday) and 4 amazing children. If they would accept Barbara in their lives, I would transition yesterday, but they won't/would not.

I recall meeting a young lady working at a fast food restaurant years ago, it was obvious she was in the middle of transitioning. I mentioned to her how proud I was of her and I wish that I could have transitioned at her age to become a beautiful woman like her. We both had small tears in our eyes at that moment.

Short answer, yes if I had the resources and knowledge 30 years ago that I have today, I would have chosen a different path.

[Lana Mae]

Thought about this a few times!
My life would have been totally different! I would have been totally acclimated to the life of a female! That would be fine, but...
My beautiful children would not have been born! My lovely wife would not have married me but who? Good, bad, or indifferent?
I am a transwoman and I am loving it!
Change the past, no thanks! I will keep the present!
Hugs Lana Mae

[Giselle(Oshawa)]

my life has been one big lie after another it could not have any worse id i transistioned earlier

[Karren H]

Mine would have been so different. I would have still been an engineer but not in coal. Probably a designed and builder of solar and wind power, pink bedazzled wind turbines as far as the eye can see! Then do a lot of traveling around the world. Start a successful airlines and branch into space flight. Be the first billionaire trans woman in space! Marry the woman of my dreams and have a couple exceptionally bright kids (she has them not me!). Life would be awesome plus some! Que the Lego Movie music and fade to black.

[Geena75]

Interesting idea. To consider an answer, I would first have to presuppose that now or in the past I would consider transitioning. So, supposing that I had, I would surely not have a life in any way resembling what I have now. My church would have exited me and ended my career path as a parochial school teacher. My family relations would have become strained, if not broken altogether. I would never have married (much less met) my wife nor raised our five children (exit three grandsons as well). Given my shy and reserved nature, it is very possible I would have never gotten out socially or found a soul-mate. So, in my particular case, I would certainly not want that life instead of what I have now.

[Aka_Donna]

Bleak, no kids and late bloomer so would have horrible to be forced to make that drastic of a change in life.

[SaraLin]

I'd like to think that my life would have followed a path similar to what I've done in male mode -just doing it as a girl/woman. But who knows? A change that big would probably have thrown my whole life into a wildly different course.

But being realistic, the truth is this:
I couldn't possibly have transitioned at an early age. There was nothing around back then (the stone ages?) - no medical, psychological, community, or family resources - and I was already a painfully shy, frightened, and emotionally fragile child. There was no way I could have ever gathered up enough courage to even SAY what I felt, let alone pursue it.
In many ways I still can't, even today. That's why this site is such a Godsend to me. It is the only place where I feel safe enough to discuss what's going on inside my head, heart, and soul.

[kimdl93]

Honestly, I think it would have been a catastrophe in my case. Basically, the most positive things achieved and experienced during my life would not have happened. Given the times, its likely my life would have been miserable and brief.

[Rachel Anne]

Agree with both Sara and Kim. Times were different, when I was young (and I like to think not that long ago, but how time flies), there was limited acceptance and understanding, and 95% of professions would have been off limits, perhaps not officially, but certainly defacto due to non-acceptance by most. Much respect to those who blazed that trail at the time. As Kim said, all of the positive things I've accomplished would not have happened given those circumstances. Maybe it would have turned out better, but objectively speaking, given the conditions, the odds of that would not have been good.

Maybe a better question would be if I was young today would I transition and the answer would be absolutely. Given the support and acceptance (relatively), if I was mysteriously 17 today again, I have zero doubt that'd be the path.

[candykowal]

Back when I was living as a girl, I tried various jobs and being a waitress was the worst.
I did like working as a chef assistant in the kitchen of at Phil Smidts Restaurant in Whiting, Indiana and if the resources and money to transition was available back then I was all ready to transition when I turned 21.
Unfortunately for me, my parents already put me thru 2 years of college and the money ran out.
I did get a Associates Degree in Business Management and Administration.
The thought would be I would could make it if I owned my own business, after my transition, as a girl, in a mans world.
I am sure I would own my own "fancy" upper class restaurant. Candy's Chophouse has a nice ring to it.
I would have hired the prettiest waitresses and would have uniforms for them that were tasteful, like the stewardesses in the 60's.
Who know with todays reality television and the food channel, I could have been a celebrity chef like Rachel Ray, Julie Child, Giada De Laurentiis, Paula Dean, or Ina Garten.
Yes, I do think about it often...what if? Today, I am "over it all" and okay with what I did with my life...no regrets anymore.
I still do cook, I am the homemaker of our household so in that respect, some things didn't change.
I make a tangy and complex Beef Stroganoff, Buttermilk Chicken tenders, Quiche Lorain, Trojan Stuffed Porkchops, Braised Lamb rolls, and Curried Venison Stew.

[April Rose]

I would have missed out on forty five years with the love of my life. The problem with theses types of speculations is that you can't just change one thing.

More germane to me is what would happen if I transition now.

[Missy Dawn]

I'm old enough now to realize that this a very long ride and that every place I've been and everything I've done has brought me to become who I am now. So the things that gave me strength to accept myself might not have happened. LOL you've got me wondering.
Peace and Love
Missy Dawn

[MonicaPVD]

I try not to think of what could have been, because even though this aspect of my life has been a challenge, I've done very well overall. Now that I think of it, I'm pretty sure that I would have spent my 20s being a fun loving, promiscuous party animal, then settled down to focus on career and family. Not much different than what I did as a boy, only that I would have been much more true to myself and my loved ones.

[CarolynO]

Had i transitioned early(before puberty),my life would've been on a much better path.No gender dysphoria to constantly haunt me,much happier,more outgoing.
The down side would be my family ties including cousins would have been permanently broken with the possible exception of my mom and stepfather.
I would've been a wonderful,submissive wife for my prince charming.
I didn't realize i was dysphoric until i was nearly 30.