And I have no idea where I am going or what is in store for me.

I am alone now pretty much by myself with no family and my wife recently passed away.

We talked about what I was going to do once she was gone. I told her there would be no more relationships for me...it would only be her and me forever.

But I would pretty much stay around the home because I have a lot to catch up with here because of all of the medical issues we've dealt with over the past two years, but that I was planning on being female while home which I hoped would be 5-6 days a week.

It's been 8 years since I last dressed to go out to clubs so everything needs to be new with makeup, practicing applying it all, and seeing how it works out.

But this will be my "new normal". There's a lot more behind all of this purpose and I'll more details when I don't have nails on.

Anyone else has been in this situation and would have any advice to share.

This process will be done in thanks to her for bringing me to this lifestyle, in her honor and memory to her.

This is going to be soooooooo INTERESTING!!!