Hi Rayleen, your post-script is almost haunting for me. I have often thought, "am I just fabricating an alternate reality out of desire, influenced by so many others on this journey." I just feel so much more "at home" when I'm "being" a woman. I started off as just an ordinary crossdresser two halloweens ago. I continue to be amazed, bewildered and a little frightened (haha) by the speed in which my evolution is taking place. Today, if life circumstances were different, I would seriously consider transitioning.
Warmly... Beverly