I've been at this for almost seven years, been out close to a thousand times. I guess I can best describe my feeling as being "natural". I get no high, but I am almost always filled with joy, happiness. That comes from two things. People are wonderfully accepting and almost always make me feel special. Happened this morning, quite a few times. And having morphed into somewhat of a fashionista, there is great satisfaction to an outfit well done. We are all snowflakes here, every one of us coming at this from a very different angle. My advice, do what makes you happy, as long as you do so safely.