I have been a crossdresser for much of my life, however, recently my wife passed away leaving me very much alone. I have an abundance of beautiful clothing (fortunately her clothes fit me) She was a woman that followed all the current styles, so most of her clothing was up to date. I now have all that clothing at my disposal and I have difficulty with, wanting to try it on. My desire to cross dress is at a stand still. Am I going through some sort of a mental adjustment or am I just in mourning, missing my soul mate ?