I can remember shortly after coming out to my Wife, the floodgates open and I was able to let my alter ego out the box. For the first time I was able to fully dress, makeup, wig, clothing and accessories but I could only do it late on the weekend evenings as I had to wait for my two children to go to bed.
I can remember I'd be excited about dressing all day, imagining how I'd look and feel but by the time I did my makeup and got dressed it would be in the early hours of the morning and I'd look in the mirror and be disheartened at what looked back at me. After a few weekends dressing late, I decided no more late nights as it was making me feel bad about myself.
Definitely a case of fantasy vs reality at times for me.
