For me, the loneliness is the worst part of it. I'm lucky to have a couple of girls I keep in touch with--some I even met on this site--but because of the social implication, we can't just hang out or pop over. Plus none of them live close by. Being a cd has always been a lonely experience, like Claire I basically dont always know what to feel except lonely. Thank god for the internet though...I cant imagine what it must have been like before when you really had to hide and had almost no safe outlet