Hi. I'm new here so sorry if I'm asking something that's been fully covered.
I've been a crossdresser for over 30 years but I still don't really have a good handle on it.
Around 7 years ago I told my girlfriend at the time (now my wife) about my crossdressing when I was young, which she found very interesting. A little while later I told her I was having an urge to dress. She was less than delighted but since then I have managed to dabble with crossdressing with her blessing.
We have had quite a few talks over the years, the subject comes up and she asks how I'm feeling. She wants to be supportive but she can't hide how uncomfortable it makes her. I then get embarrassing (I still have lots of guilt and shame about dressing) and I downplay it.
I'm now at a point where I'm 45 and I feel like I'm running out of time to understand this part of me, and I'm only going to understand it by doing it, but I'm just unsure how to explain this to my wife without making her feel bad or causing me to bottle it.
Does anyone have any advice or ideas how I can broach the subject in a positive way? I'm worried about potentially driving her away and I'm also worried I will get embarrassed and miss my chance.
Thanks