Recently i tried to return to my male personification. I was very successful for five months. I really thought the "pink fog" had left so I made the mistake of purging my collection of wonderful female items. One morning I woke up, and searched high and low for just one item of my crossdressing life to satisfy a burning desire to once again, touch the reality, of what I have been most of my adult life. Immediately I went on the Internet and ordered, panties, stockings, a bra and a baby doll night shirt. I then went to the local market picking up, mascara, lipstick and eyeliner. I searched my late wife's closet and found some sweaters and blouses that would fit me. At this time ,as it has happened to me before, I once again realized, you can never leave your place in the feminine life that has really become one of the integral parts of your personality. It will always be there throughout your whole life. Just a little warning to my sisters, in this interesting and satisfying world, never purge those valuable items. It is very costly to replenish your wardrobe and accessories.