Yes, Charlotte is me, always has been, always will be, but I live my life as X, and therefore Charlotte feels like a totally separate life and set of experiences.
I've just had probably the most beautiful moment that actually brought me to tears, and has again a couple of times since.
Recently I came out to a colleague, and she has been the most supportive person you could imagine. I felt comfortable enough to go to a virtual meeting with her today whilst dressed, and we discussed crossdressing, my being transgender and so on. I said about how I want to have a voice, but that I am scared of exposing myself, and she referenced me by my name.
Yes, my name as I was presenting. First name, last name. I was called Charlotte X.
Hearing somebody else speak my name was such a special moment that I was just overcome with emotion and the tears started forming almost instantly.
I cannot believe how powerful that moment was.