BUT, it's so much easier! Easier to "fit in" with "the guys" and pretend I'm just like them. Easier to take a quick shave, slip into my tightie whities, jeans or shorts and t-shirt, and get on with my day. Go anywhere, do anything, not worrying about standing out from the crowd. But I REALLY feel more comfortable presenting my feminine Larissa self as much as I can. Even just panties, skirt, flowery top, hair (my own, luckily, at age 69) hanging down in cascading curls, and a little eyeliner, lipstick, and perfume would be all I need. Then of course dress to the nines with full makeup, dress, hose, heels, jewelry, etc. for an evening out (which I have yet to do) every once in a while. These feelings are just getting stronger all the time, and I'm beginning to think that I am trans. I know I won't want to ever do hormones or surgery, just present feminine all the time. I'm fairly sure I would do this if I lived alone, except when hanging out with family and friends (no one knows except my wife).
My wife is accepting and mostly supporting, but I think she's still struggling with understanding all of this (even though it's all around us in our society now, especially in the younger generations). She seems fine with me partially dressing a lot, and underdressing almost all the time, but I still feel like I can't do more than that without freaking her out. Which is ok for now at least, but it's frustrating.
So now my wife is out for the day (we're both retired, so usually together 24/7), so as soon as she left I put on some pink lacy panties and a silky pink nighty, pink lipstick, and perfume, and sat down to write this. I guess I don't need any advice (but I'll take it!), but I wonder if anyone else has the same kind of situation. Just venting my frustrations...
~Larissa