I am still amazed at a night out a week ago. Now, as a preface, I should explain that I have always been very reserved and fairly self-conscious about how I come across to people. I suppose having faced ridicule for my appearance in my teenage years still haunts me. Consequently, one aspect of my life is that I never did anything like dancing until in my 20's. Even then, I ranged out only rarely, but grew to like a waltz, polka, slow dance, or reels (Civil War era). Never to pop/rock (except one time in an alcohol fueled moment in college).
I managed to seize an opportunity to meet up with some of the ladies in Grand Rapids at a bar/club where a favorite band was playing. I really like getting out with them and figured it would be fun. The band played pop/rock from the late 70's through the 90's and were pretty good. I let myself get into some of the songs and got to thinking when some of the group went out to the small dance floor. It hit me -- "why the heck not!" And I push myself out there and take my cue from the others. In short order I was thoroughly enjoying myself. Not only did I do a lot of dancing that night, I encouraged/dragged others from the group out for certain songs. I am nowhere near good, but, as Dave Berry once said, "No one really cares how well you dance." I was on cloud 9 for days afterward. I had to PM a couple friends just to tell them about it.
After a week to calm down, I begin to wonder if this new-found freedom will bleed over into regular life. After due consideration, I realize it most probably will not. Unless a situation came about which would overcome my native reserve and self-consciousness, I will just be the way I have been. Being Geena offers a blank slate type freedom and I can overcome many inhibitions. I will just have to be sure they are good ones to overcome.
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,You are out there Now and there is no Turning Back ! >Orchid**O
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