Hello all, let me say I don't know if this is the right forums but here goes - I have been a lurker mostly in the cd forum as I never allowed myself to think this was anything more. As a cd, I have that "man in a dress" look, broad shoulders (but flat chest lol), too tall, etc. Anyway, so I have no one in real life to talk about what I feel, and I have felt not right since I was a teenager. I won't bore anyone with more as it seems a pretty typical story as I read the forums. I do have one girlfriend I met online in similar circumstances and we chat a lot. She recommended I try the FaceApp gender algorithm, which is likely my mistake! I know intellectually the computer makes changes to my face, opens the eyes, reduced rugged jawline, adds shoulder length hair which nicely frames the face, but - the first time I say that photo I started crying. I had to stop of course because of family in house but it was me! I mean the woman I see in the mirror when I can day dream, for maybe 40 years now. Like meeting a doppelganger or yourself from an alternative universe, except with xx not xy chromosome. I now spend a good part of my day day dreaming about what if? what if I was born as a genetic girl? What if I could transition and accomplish even 50% of the changes I see in this photo!! I am really torn now, I have a hard time concentrating at home and at work. I guess this is not really a question so much as I need someplace to write this down and vent a bit. I hope I do not waste anyone's time. Let me say I have spent some time reading past posts in this forum and am learning a lot. Thank you.