I have been following this one sister on this site, she is from the same city and she belongs to a small group that holds small venues. I never contacted this person or anything like that but I mentioned to my wife a few months ago how she felt if I was to approach something like this. We talked about it briefly but she did have an open mind about it.
Last night I got dressed to go on my Friday night drive and before I put my male clothes over my wife wants to see what I'm wearing to make sure I look decent. She told me I have come a long way and she joked about she knows a lot of men who would love to have a feel of those long gorgeous legs. She then told me it was like a waste to be dressed so nice to just put gas in the car and drive around for hours. She then asked me that I have been mentioning a lot about that person on this community that was holding small venues and if this is something I was considering still and we should discuss maybe to renegotiate out original deal. She reminded me about 35 years ago the original deal was I wasn't gay and I didn't want to become a women and the biggest part was if was going to be happy with just staying in the closet, in which she reminded me I crossed that line many times. As we were talking her main concerns were that I had to walk in public I don't pass well as a women, if I get seen by someone and in her view it seems like people are more open to this but there still is a lot a hatters and I guess she worries about me. She then told me if I wanted to take that route what I thought about considering telling the children and close family so they don't find out elsewhere and we could alter our original contract. I was sitting there hearing her talk and I could see the stress on her face almost like watching her ageing right in front of me, she is so thoughtful and caring that I just can't put her through anymore then she is already induring. I told her there is no need to renegotiate the contract because I'm in a very happy place and couldn't have even imagined to be where I am now and it's because of her I'm where I am today. I don't want to get to mushi but I reinsured her of my love for her and how much I appreciate everything she does. I could instantly see a weight lifted off her shoulders and a beautiful smile came across her face as she told me that I could tell her anything that I have on my mind.
As much as maybe at times I do consider taking that next step I'm going to consider my wife's feelings of concern and I really don't want her to worry about more then she already has to deal with. I believe her openness and willing to talk is a big part of our relationship. The funny part is, she brought it up when I should have.